I cannot say many thing about me but I know that I like to dream for something better everyday.
Since I was young I liked to discover the world and I start with my home town and after more and more. I have a lot of things still to discover but I one thing I know for sure: I like to work and to be active.
To dream and to live it, I need to go out from my house, from my home town, to meet know people(valuable people or rude people), to be involved in my community and to learn from others.
I was not the best student but I was curious to know information about everything. For that I was involved in different projects or different activities to help me to grow.
In time I learned that I need to leave my comfort zone because in this way I will be challenged. I did it and in time my comfort zone was growing and again I needed to leave that.
Few years ago I decided to leave my country and to follow a person that I care. Was not my dream to do that but I decided to leave a new challenge. It is not easy to leave your family, friends and your project and to take everything from zero.
This was not easy but what it is easy in our life? If you have a dream and wants to achieve, that you need to stand up from your bed every morning, to open the door and to be prepared to meet people, to meet behaviors, to find a way to be different. To live every day for as you start again. To learn from everyday something even that's the hardest point of the day. Also you need find something to enjoy.
I arrived in a totally different country, with different culture, different way of working and living. It is normal to feel I am strange, weird or people around me are too different because until that you lived after some principle and values. I choose to respect the country where I came but to keep my principle and values because they are mine and nobody can take them as much they want. Also I decided to not let me dreams away and still to dream it.
First three days was to discover my new town (after few year I feel is my second new home town because I get used with). I walked from one side to another with my back pack taking pictures, looking to people around me, shops, churches, monuments, markets, parks and everything which can help in the future. The results of that three days was I hate the place even it is a nice town to live but totally different from where I came from.
The next few weeks I attend to NINO interview and start to find jobs because I have someone to support me financial. If I need something to buy, I will save or work extra until I have that amount of money. I created a CV about my experience and I applied online in my interested areas(IT and social). Unfortunately no results and I start to go to print my CV (or to save it in my email draft-ready to be send) and I enter in every single agency to search for a job.
In the first 4 weeks not chances and more than that I received comments and feedback which was not very hard to accept them(but I needed because I am not in my home country), sorry we are not looking for people at the moment, sorry you don't have experience for these roles, sorry these roles are not public. More than that in the street or ever the phone I received comments as f.... immigrants, gypsy, you stink, come back in your country and go and work in warehouse as everyone from your country. I couldn't accepts and sometimes I call the police and other time I answer back but I little bit different than I received.
My first job I found after 8 weeks and I stayed for 6 weeks and I left because they employer in that moment didn't keep the promised and didn't make me to feel safe at work. I will not give any name because as I know after I left they had issues with authorities.
I started again looking for new job but also for volunteer. Being December was extremely hard to find a job, even temporary but I refused to go in warehouses. I knew I can do more than that and my skills can be used in other areas.
I searched for all the voluntary roles in the area but unfortunately no chances just comment "let us your number and we will call you", "sorry we don't need volunteers" and the worst one was "We don't accept volunteer from East Europe". Even in that moment I knew this is discrimination but I chose to leave and let them to do their activities with people they want to know. At the moment after almost 5 years, I am visiting 3 places from those one and they are happy to chat with me or ask me if I want to be volunteer. Unfortunately I needed to refuse and with the people who were very rude with me I felt to give them a feedback" In 2015 I came to do volunteer and you chose not to work with East Europe people, what it changed now?". After this comment and question I left.
This period of time was very hard but I was lucky that I was supported by an amazing person and encouraged me everyday. I applied an average 200 jobs daily because I was desperate to work something. Most like I applied for the same jobs maybe 50/60 times but who cared about it?
One think I learnt from this period and changed my way to search jobs or opportunities. Be different and insist because in the end they don't want to see you every day in their offices to ask if they have a job for you. This part I will say I extended my comfort zone and develop some communication and strategic skills. Every day I was attention with their feedback come back did in totally new way.
January and February I was lucky to go in 4 interviews in IT and 3 interviews in Social Care.
I chose a job in IT and one part time in social care.
With the one in social care I had an very interesting experience but I will write another time about that.
